Walk With Me

A few years ago I wrote a poem called "Walk With Me". In a fit of anger over his betrayal I erased the poem from my computer but I still remember the last three lines.

Walk with me and be my friend
Walk with me and be my lover
Walk with me forever

I wrote it for someone I thought was my soul mate. I was wrong.

But each person who enters our lives touches us and changes us in ways we don't often realize until years later. Some we never realize because their contact with us was a fleeting moment. But, like the butterfly effect they do help shape who we are.

We are the sum of our experiences intertwined with our genetic code.

Take a moment and ponder the people who have come and gone in your life and how they affected you. What was good about it and what was bad?

Can you erradicate the bad and only keep the good? I think you can but it takes a lot of inner soul searching and mental strength. Like I said in the beginning of this post he betrayed me and made me much more wary of who I associate with. I've spent the past two years erradicating the damage he did to me and building up the positive things he and others brought into my life.

I'm undecided about that wariness. It seems to be a double edged sword. But I do believe that a true friend will prevail.

I would like to find someone to walk with me forever. But first I'm going to make sure that they really are my friend.

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Afew words about what happened. He was severly abused as a child and hates himself. He would hurt me to punish himself. At some point I was so hurt and scared that I started abusing him back. I'm glad it's over and I'm trying to learn what I can from the experience.