My Religion

I've been doing a lot of soul searching over the last few years. So many things have happened to me and I have a hard time believing they are random chance. I don't think it was "god" either. I think it was me.

I've been reading some books on Kaballah that either claim that we are god or that we are striving to be god. I think they are essentially saying the same thing they are just attacking it from different directions.

Then there is my favorite movie "what the bleep do we know" that also says we are god and bases it quantum mechanics.

So here I have a religion and science basically telling me the same thing. Except that mainstream Judaism is on a completely different track from Kaballah.

Why?

Because most people can't do it alone. Most people aren't able to question and think and reach their own conclusions and strive to find more and more answers. Most people don't have a burning curiosity to know everything.

A few months ago I was having lunch with a woman who grew up on the East Coast. She knows a lot of Jewish people and asked me about keeping Kosher. Why is it so complicated? I answered her based on the Jewish Philosophy I had taken in High School. It's to make you think before you eat something.

I'm going to expand that thought and say that all the Mitzvot are meant to make you think. You are constantly having to think about what you are doing. Nothing can be automatic because you might be breaking a law. I think that was the original idea behind the Mitzvot, to make you think and question everything.

Except that some fanatics managed to turn it into something else. So today we have mainstream Judaism that is obsessed with every little detail of the book and ignores everything else in life.

That was not the authors intention!

It was meant to be a tool. It was meant to be a path to enlightenment. We were supposed to be beyond it already. Instead we botched it up and turned it into a horrible weapon of torture.

The Beatles said "All you need is love"

I say "All you need is to think for yourself".

That's my religion.

Back to School I Go

The semester has started and it's going to be very very interesting and very very challenging. One good thing. Only one of the courses I'm taking has exams!!!!

Quantum Entanglement and the "Supernatural"

The entire universe is in a quantum entanglement. Now just in the present but also in the past and in the future. We are more entangled with ourselves than anyone else. We are constantly in touch with our past and future selves.

I've been watching my favorite movie again "What the bleep down the rabit hole". That sentence struck a chord with me and I don't remember hearing it before.

I have premonitional dreams. I dream about things before they happen. I've always wondered why. Now I know why on a certain level. But, as with all really interesting questions, the answer raises more questions than it really answers.

How does it happen?

Why does it happen at certain times?

Can I learn to control it?

Do I want to learn to control it?

Destroying the planet

Rabbinic Law

Rabbinic Law is the law in Judaism. Rabbis have the say on what is and is not allowed. You can choose the Rabbi you want to ask but after you ask you have to follow what they say.

Lately I've been wondering about Shabbat. You aren't supposed to work on Shabbat but what is the definition of working? I was taught that working is creating. For example, you can take a 50 lb weight and carry it around in your house all day long and not break the Sabbath because although you "worked" hard and sweated you didn't create anything. On the other hand you can't write something down because then you are creating something. It gets more complicated. The creation has to be something lasting. If you write something in sand it isn't considered creating because the letters will not remain.

Rabbinic law says that you can't turn on a light on Shabbat because you are creating a spark. But that spark isn't lasting and neither is the light. When you turn off the light it is gone just like the writing in the sand (I know it's still around somewhere but not in that form so don't get smart with me). When you turn on a light you aren't really creating anything because all you are doing is shifting where the electrons run to. They are running all the time in the current and when ou flip the switch they simply run in a different path. So there's no more creation there than a muscle spasm. What aboutdriving in a car? Are you creating anything lasting? Of course not (except maybe some pollution). In fact virtually nothing we do is really a lasting creation.

So if we look at Shabbat from a philosophical point of view there's no reason to not use electricity and cars etc. Now I want to get my Smicha so I can give my ruling to everyone ;-)

Stressed out

I'm not sleeping lately. Last year I had trouble sleeping around this time for good reason. Two years ago I had trouble sleeping around this time for good reason. Three years ago I had trouble sleeping around this time for good reason.

Have I developed a habit of not sleeping around this time of year or is something else going on?

Work is going well I passed my probation period and have my 80 hours of comp time banked.

I'm almost done organizing the house (I cleaned out my junk room and moved stuff from the living room and office into it. There's so much room now!)

So why can't I sleep?

Health Care

If you are against the reform please explain yourself to me in your own words without parroting Glenn Beck and Rush Limbaugh.

For real?

Have you ever caught yourself for a moment realizing that "wow, I have a real job and I'm really doing something that makes a differnce..."? Well it happened to me yesterday. Out of the blue it dawned on me that I'm officially a grown up now (about time isn't it). Since turning 18 I'was in the army for two years; played with horses for twenty years; went back to college (yeah I worked too). But now I have a real job.

For real!

Freedom

We call this the land of the free.

If you've ever lived in another country you will know what a joke that is. In the name of freedom we have tied and enslaved ourselves worse than a slave.

I Very few Americans really understand the concept of freedom. Americans are too busy chasing the American dream or being politically correct to the point that they are denying their own rights. Americans are slaves to the Constitution. It never occurs to them that a 250 year old document might be outdated and need to be changed. That's what amendments are for. And amendments are amendments and not the constitution. 150 years ago slave owners said they had a constitutional right to own slaves. That was wrong. The constitution is not holy and it can be wrong.

Not everything foreign is evil.

Not every concept besides capitalism is evil.

Fear of change and new ideas is what strangles this country.

There are better ideas out there. Learn to be open and listen and adapt. That is real freedom.

Beyond Blame

This is a book about taking full responsibility of your life from a Kabbalistic point of view. The thory is that when you take responsibility for your life you become God.

It isn't about guilt. It's about not blaming others for what's going on in your life. It's about giving and not taking but giving responsibly without turning yourself into a victim- no co-dependency!

It's an easy concept to understand and a harder one to achieve but not impossible. I saw this work in my own life. Once I got over the bitterness of the abuse and focused on making my life better it DID get better. I will never again allow myself to become a victim. Not even for a short period of time. This week I stood up to my boss about something that was important to me and won. I am the mistress of my own future.

We create our own reality. We can be victims or God. The choice is ours to make.

Will the Idiot ever shut up

Sarah Palin says that Obama's health care reform will jeapordize Trig.

I think that the only thing that jeapordizes Trig is his moron of a mother.

When will this woman stop lying?

When will this woman stop using her own children?

When will this woman GO AWAY!!!!

Do you think for yourself?

It isn't an easy thing to do. We are inundated with opinions and information to the point where it's really hard to have an original thought.

I try to weigh things and consider them and nuance them. But my thoughts are often influenced by other peoples opinions I have heard.

I think I do have some original thoughts but not as many as I think I do.

How about you...

Glen Beck

I'm starting to come to the realization that Glenn beck sees the world in negative. I'm not saying that he has a negative attitude. Do you remember what camera film negatives look like? That's how Glen Beck sees the world. Everything black is white and everything white is black to him.